I will cause i said i would,
Not cause i could,
Or that i should,
The world could,
If we all would,
It is what we should,
For the good,
Its where the elders stood.
I will cause i said i would,
I remember way back when,
We never wanted the days to end,
Cruises to the river were everything,
Back roads, timbers and Hailey’s Spring,
Arguments over everything sports or fights,
Our Dagas were always right,
Even when we were right on,
We were still wrong,
Time went on we started drinking,
What the hell were we thinking,
Now hear I am so far away,
Wishin I could go back today,
Damn I miss that place,
Friends, Relatives, snags & my Brother Boot Face,
No matter what I do, how far I go,
I’ll always come back to Winnebago,
For most it’s just a place not there own,
For Us Ho-Chunks it is our Home.
For awhile I been asleep at night,
Up all day in the sun light,
Sometimes I think if the moon,
Wish I could see it sometime soon,
I still remember it’s beauty,
Bright shiny light a sight to see,
Surrounded by darkness and space,
A beacon of hope in a perfect place,
The nights have been rough for me,
Some my fault but still a tragedy,
I appreciate all this world has to offer,
Good..bad..all lessons to become better,
No matter where I go or how far out of sight,
I will hold tight my love for the moonlight.
I love and miss you a whole bunch,
To be there…I wish so much,
No matter what I’ll always feel this way,
Your always in my heart everyday,
Kiera, Micah & Seda your my family,
You all make me so proud & happy.
Here I am. This is who I have always been. Not many could see me, but I was there, hidden beneath a boy who didn’t care. Running away from sadness and pain, waiting for the rain to wash it all away and start a new day.
This boy I hid beneath was a crazy one who did many things I would have done.
Now you see this young man who will do anything he can to help others be happy. He will go anywhere near and far, tired or hungry, to bring good company. He goes where he is needed most. He comes laughing and smiling, then gone like a ghost.
It is so beautiful out there right now. Nights like this…
Let me tell you there is big puffy snow out there just falling and falling like it will never end. The wind is pushing the snow on the ground like some kind of possessed fog. You can see the winds patttern clearly with the snow in it.
Nights like this you know you are alive. You know there is something greater then you out there watching and causing this. It makes me smile knowing many others run from the cold; in a way they fear the snow. It is out of their comfort zone. But if they just put it aside and withstand the cold if only for a moment then they could marvel at the beauty all around them. And then…then the cold will not matter anymore.
Just like the sweat lodge when you marvel in it and enjoy it for what it’s worth, then the heat will simply go away and you will go with in and feel GREAT. ALIVE.
I encourage everyone to be brave and take that step. Once you let go, something else beautful will hold on.